It’s the time of the year when the rays turn golden and illuminate the world around you in the mellowest golden tint you have ever seen.
It’s the 31st of December 2021. Still feels like 2020. Seems like time is still stuck somewhere between December of 2020 and January 2021. When I say January 2021, it feels like we are yet to explore the novelty of the year 2021. It looks like the year 2021 is squeezed between 2020 and 2022, like a lemon.
I hope 2021 was a good one for all of my readers and I wish a better 2022 to everyone.
I love being outdoors. Not that I am an adventurous person. But I love walking and watching the world around me. Even if it’s the same market plaza I have been visiting from the past two decades of my life, I either notice something new about it or will look at it with new eyes. I missed all of that a lot this year. I stayed mostly indoors, working. Eat, Sleep, Work, Repeat.
Although I stayed indoors for most part of the year, the internet was my go to place to explore the world beyond the local market plaza. I acquainted myself with a variety of new subjects, people, films and yes more creative people. I kept in touch with old friends from school and college and let go of a few of them.
This year, I entered the 26th year of my life. My life has been fairly kind to me. I was an active student at my school and college. The day I took up my first big job, I didn’t have the remotest inkling of events to ensue ahead. I went through a terrible breakup, my job life was growing dreary day by day and my family had to go through pains for which they were unprepared.
Well, that’s life isnt it?
We are supposed to find strength in our pain and I did the same. Little did I know about how to find purpose in pain. Little did I know that one needs to shed away their old skin to fit into the new challenges life poses in front of them. We can’t change ourselves or the situation around us in a night, but maybe in an instant we could.
All I knew was, I wasn’t the only one to go through a bad phase of life. I came across a speech that made a lasting impression on my mind. It was the Harvard commencement speech by J.K.Rowling.
Now I am not a Potter fan,I haven’t read the books but I do have some knowledge about her life. I knew she was a young single mother. Astonishingly she started working on her Potter series almost around the same time. I am sure the idea of writing a fantasy book might have lurked in her mind quite early in her life. Yet the opposing conditions didn’t deter her will. The one sentence I clearly remember from her speech,
“It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default.” – J K Rowling
My spirits were untouched by failure for the first twenty years of my life. I never gave it a thought. How it feels to fail at anything. I was a good daughter. I was equally excellent at academics and co curricular activities. Competing at district level competitions filled me with an unending source of positivity. My heart still mobilizes strength from the accumulated positivity. But time taught me, positivity and confidence isn’t all that one needs to move ahead. Ego blinded my ability to analyse people and situations around me. In a given situation, I only knew how to win it, but what are the chances that I could go wrong? What are my weaknesses and how do I hold them back at crucial moments? I knew nothing. I didn’t know what it means to be weak or to fear, let alone overcoming fear and weakness. In that case, I never knew what it meant to be strong. Thanks to the experiences I had in the past five years, I am fairly aware about the possibilities I hold in myself and my limits.
This was the year when I halted for sometime. I guess we all did that. We held back before taking the next leap due to the uncertainties floating around. Today, we all stand at the brink of a new dawn. With uncertainties still floating around, survival looks like an achievement. It is and was always an achievement to survive. But at the start of the modern age, we deemed survival as something very ordinary. If one is able to find the purpose of this soul, only then it was termed as something extraordinary. Yes, finding purpose behind every breath does bring peace at heart. But it should not in any way subvert the significance of survival.
The best part of this year
So yeah I’m feeling good about the coming year!!
Happy New Year everyone!!